assalamualaikum.
its been such a worrying week.with so much to do, and so little time.so much pressure and stress bearing down these shoulders.and at times i wonder if i went too far.pushed myself too far.pushed myself to the limits.started the week with what i thought was a typical sore throat, until it didnt go away.and it was too late when i went to the doctor on thursday morning, the doc was tellin me...'you have a singing competition tmr, and u just came to see me now?!"
and thats when he told me i had a throat infection. ppl was like,' but u dont smoke!' i wished i could admit entirely that that was true. i didnt exactly had a good past.i did a lot of stupid things when i was young, things i'm not proud of and things i regretted.the first puff i had was in pri 5...yes.at such a tender age.growin up with such rebellious cousins didnt help me back then..
and quitting this smoking habit is one of the toughest habit i've ever experienced.and thank God, i'm slowly and gradually making my way to being a non-smoker. BUT, i'm not there yet. when i'm really down, i cant help but to take a puff..still aint strong enough to resist that temptation.
the last time i took a stick was a few weeks ago? and i guess it was karma, hitting back at me. Broke the promise i made to my mum.
for the past few days, i prayed and hope things would be fine. that my throat would heal.that i wont screw myself up with these pressure piling on top of me.
SP Star is over, and my prayers are answered. my voice came back at just the right time for the first song, 'harder to breath'. though it was starting to hurt again when i sang the 2nd song,'lately'. i was tearing singing that song.not because of the throat, but because of the meaning of the song.and Alhamdulillah, despite the infection, i still manage to get something out of the whole competition, in 2nd place. really am grateful.i'd like to thank all those who came down to support me, aidil and aisyahbi..i cnt do much, but to say thx.God Bless u guys..
in a few hours time, its AsianBeat Semis at DXO. me and MadHatter have worked a brilliant song together. lets hope things go our way.insyaAllah. if it does, finals in a week's time..woah.

and through it all..
imma tell myself.. if holding on is a crime.
imma move on..and keep on waiting for that moment..
and though that moment hav not come.
i still have a lot to look forward to..
and i cant emphasize this more...
"Alhamdulillah.."=)

wassalaam,
Riza Hamizan.