From the surface.

Saturday, September 08, 2007

salaams.
i didnt have the best of days today.woke up not feeling good at all. it havent been a very good week. but then again. its probably my mind thinkin too much again. there's been good news like i havta do another talenttime end of this september. Alhamdulillah. bersyukur.
another issue stroke my mind today. Friends.
yea.
Friends. sometimes i wonder, what is e true definition of friends. and if friends are as good as they are meant to be, i dont see much around.maybe they should be termed as acquaintances.thats e right term when i really think of it.and when friends come into the picture, i'd tend to observe em and ask myself.
'will they be there if i needed them?'
'will they be with me, when i need their company?'
'are they the kind who'll take u for granted? laugh but wont cry wit ya?'
since small, i was the guy who had a lot of friends, or acquaintances rather. the kinda guy who would hav somebody to say hi to at each corner of school or the neighbourhood. but in real truth, i had noone to say when someone ask me of my best friends.yea, i hav NO bestfriends. there's only a minority of those friends whom i would call, CLOSE friends. and that doesnt mean i'd trust em or confide to them.its those people who i would meet,chill, and hav fun with on a regular basis. call me nuts,but i really find it hard to express or share my feelings to someone. even if its my family. i'm always the one, who would try my best to help somebody in need or distress. but when it comes to my own emotions and thoughts, i'd bottle it up.
i'd only tell if someone saw me in distress, asked me about it. even so,i'd think twice about telling.but when i think about it. it's better to confide. sharing makes u feel better.
if somebody comes along and happen to really impact my life positively in the long run, i'd call him/her a best friend. in a world where ego and power seem to drive every human being, a REAL friend would be hard to find.
i'm really sorry if my entries' too deep or emotional at some point. but hey, i am an emotional guy. and i'd find this blog useful in pouring out my thoughts.
moments ago, i wasnt feeling all the best. empty and down. i opened up iTunes clicked on this song playing in my blog and i'd feel all e better.
wonderful ain't it.
i hope i'll be good enough to write these kinda songs somewhere in e future...
songs that touches people's hearts.. insyaAllah
Cool.
guess i wont be going to Platform tomorrow.
cause well.. here's a clue. read this entry from e top again.
and u'd know why. =)

*i'm doing just fine..*
wassalaam,
Reyza

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