assalaamualaikum..
i just had an upbeat performance at zouk on Friday. A performance i thoroughly enjoyed, had backup dancers and all. Pretty upbeat songs, NeYo's Because of You,Sexy Love, Frankie J's That Girl and Cant take my Eyes off You. sang together with Shah. it was pretty memorable cause of all the fun i had on stage and with the audience. Though it all changes once it all hits me. This clubbing thing. I stayed at one corner, while i watch ppl i know dancing, grinding on the floor and doing all the typical shit teenagers these days are known for. and i cant help but to think, if i was the reyza a few yrs ago, i'd prolly tag along, doing all that shit.. but that reyza's been gone for some time now, and i'm grateful for it..i'm pretty thankful i didnt do anything stupid on Friday. things happen, circumstances made me change me. and i'd feel better not following these cheap thrills. there are limits. and i know them well. as i observed these ppl on the dancefloor.. theres this little voice inside of me,tellin me to join them. and this 'voice' have been the cause of my downfall in the past..but i managed to rise, and i'm more prepared now.. and i wont fall anymore. i wont allow it to happen.
and i found out that one of those reasons that made me rise was knowin i had friends who share the same thoughts as me. who'd agree with what i havta say about this typical shit that many ppl hav fallen for..
and ppl who read this are gonna say, i'm too conservative. but yea. thats where u'll havta understand i'm that way for a reason. go figure.
here's a song, that briefly explains what i feel everyday when i head to sch..and when i head home. credits to aeem.
questions. questions i ask myself.questions yet to be answered.
listen to the lyrics carefully.

The Questions - Musiq Soulchild

[Verse 1:]
When I think about all the girls I'm with all the time
Yes I like to please their bodies but I feel like it's a waste of time
Can you tell me what is wrong
I'm supposed to love the fact that I never gave a girl my heart
If I told her I did I lied and instead I tore her's apart
Can you tell me how long cause

[Chorus:]
Right now I just wanna be staring into your eyes
Right now I'm so lost but when I find you I'll be found
And I won't have to ask all these questions like can someone tell me where you are

[Verse 2:]
What'll happen if i settle and just go along with what I have
Cause there's a difference between good and great
And good wasn't built to last
Can you tell me is this all for me

[Chorus:]
Right now I just wanna be staring into your eyes
Right now I'm so lost but when I find you I'll be found
And I won't have to ask all these questions like can someone tell me where you are

[Bridge:]
What would it take to be
In a love I know that's right for me
And I know that you don't even know me yet
But I believe that one day I'll be where you are