assalamualaikum..
you know when u saw that glimmer of hope..after bein in solitary confinement for so long..ur stuck in a world where it all repeats every single day,and u just cant wait for that moment when somethin happen that changes everything.it maybe pretty minor in the eyes of others,but in ur mind and heart..its big,and suddenly everything seems fine,all the shit that u've been dealing with all these while seems bearable and tolerable..and instead of waking up with a frown,u wake up grinning to urself..looking forward to the day..it gives u strength and energy to overcome all the obstacles ur struggling each and everyday...and when night comes,and ur on ur bed...u cant help but to stare at the ceiling..thoughts racing through your mind,questions to be answered..puzzles to be solved..u'll toss and turn,and realise ur too excited for the next day to come.u cant sleep,and you cant keep ur mind off from the brand new day that awaits...life seems so fine.its amazing how life gets affected bcos of the slightest things,negative or positive..but in this case,u know its positive..and its nowhere negative...it all seems beautiful...blissful is the best word to describe..

my mind cant stop thinkin currently..and well,what i've written here is wat i'm currenly thinkin of.and most of you would have guessed what i'm talking about.and most of you would have guessed it correctly..yess it is about love.that feeling when ur in love.i'm not sayin i'm in love or anythin like that..but,i'm just tryna recall how it feels like to be in love.. pathetic u mite say..but i dont really care what u think.but that feeling that i'm talking about..its all too vague at the moment,its overshadowed rather..by what takes place after that.some of us remain..but most of us,dont...at that moment,while i was describing that feelin..i was struggling.bcos all the shit and effin memories keep haunting and coming back..
and despite all the great and memorable things that had happened to me...i'd still feel a teeny bit of dissatisfactory..bcos there wasnt that extra spark.that icing on the cake which makes it a whole lot more beautiful..

and for a while.. i thought there was a glimmer of hope but then again,it all seems too good to be true.yeaa..and this sophisticated mind of mine,cant stop thinkin about it at the moment..and i might be crazy,laughing my ass off,making funny and lame jokes everyday...but theres that other side of me,i've always hidden..that other side of me,which i'm still trying to understand..the side of me who thinks too much, who's sensitive and fragile..i guess my history has made me this way..bcos i've been thru shit..
and to whom it may concern..
"dont lemme think you're the same.."
wassalaam,
Reyza H.