i've been busy for some time now..it never seem to stop huh,but hey i never did want it to stop..i'm juggling a few things at the moment, writing a song for the ARC album,Graduation day concert,SP Crescendo competition and of course school...and i'm not feeling the greatest rite now,actually i'm nowhere happy at the moment..bcos some ppl just dunno how to shut their pieholes about something i do and something i hold dearly to..they just have to leave a mark and doubt you..doubt you and your ability..they dont have the thought in mind of how important it means to that person..
well i have been a subject of controversy for some while now..and i know ppl have been talking abut me..and when i mean controversy,is those gossips and thoughts shared about me behind my back..those effinn shit that would hold you back and make you say,' haish..is this what i'm made for?'thats a pity huh...but the biggest pity is when your FRIENDS are among those people..now thats effin hypocrisy..
i've been singing for some while...yea,for a few years now,and its been a passion for some time..and to have ppl comment on that..people who dont know nuts on singing,or people who cant sing for balls..its just plain annoyment..just pure irritant.bcos i know they wnt do better than me,or even worse,they havta imitate how i sing exaggeratingly..its a bitter pill to swallow..but i still havta gobble it down..no matter how bitter and awful it is..criticisms and bad comments..they are pills thats gonna make
me improve,and if one ever gave up bcos of em..than its really a big gigantic pity..
there's a part of me where i feel..i have no life currently..bcos i'm too indulged in music and performing.its been a long time since i've been to the movies..a long time since i've gone to lepak...a long time since i visited my grandparents over in Batu Pahat. i've skipped previous visits there bcos of my life currently..and guilt has come over me..so i know, that i havta take a break..away from performing, away from singing for a while...spend some time with friends and most importantly family..
and i hope that comes soon...bcos i feel jaded...and when the time comes..i'll know...
there's another part of me which has been really annoying in the emotional sense...cos i've just known this gerl who has the same vibe as my previous love..they sound the same too.and she's totally not someone who'd i wanna fall for..but i just cant seem to take her away from my mind..it'll go away with time i guess...
and when ppl start talking about love...
i'm speechless...i had nothing to say cos i'm losing faith in it..
i'm losing hope on it..
lets hope everything goes well...

"padaMu ku berdoa"
wassalaam..
Reyza H