Its funny how contrasting yesterday and today are....how different yesterday and today can be.. its funny how i could have the time of my life performing on the stage, entertaining the crowd and my friends..doing what i noe i can do best..singing...i remember how exciting it was...e adrenaline rush as the crowd cheered you on,seemingly entertained and moved by my performance...n i love yesterday...dat was yesterday...a yesterday i will soon miss and a yesterday i can truly cherish...how much i really appreciate and really grateful for where i am...n i thank God for that..ALHAMDULILLAH....because for once..i thought i really had a chance of making it big as a a performer and singer...and i saw how ppl believe i can make it..n i thank them for their support and their cheers..

HOWEVER.....

Today is today.....today is totally different..its a today i wanna forget.. a day of different contrast than yesterday...
woke up early in e morning and practiced the whole night yesterday..for the Ear Training test which is today...after all dat..wasnt enough...its funny how a singer can FAIL ear training test...its a module singers can easily excel in...imagine my horror when i found out i FAILED...the only one who FAILED in the course..the only module i thought i can excel in.....n what really affected me most was what Jimmy said...yesh JIMMY JAP...the singer cum songwriter who inspires me and who i really idolise..

"reza....your tuneless....", musical ppl would noe how demoralizing his words can be and how demoralizing his facial expression and tone can be...n it hurts...i'm like being stabbed by his words in the heart..and thats e first thing he said when i began the chromatic scale....n after hearing those words..i cant simply focus on the other questions he tested me on..my mind went blank after dat and i cant focus...its just too much for me to take...n i flopped everything after that..THANX JIMMY...i guess i can just really blame myself...because i cant handle what u said..i did practice,but maybe its not enough...then again, i wasnt really a student you'd favor...n u noe what i feel, i'm sorry if i'm assuming here...but i think u have been looking down on me since a long time ago....which is why i have never felt comfortable with u....but still...my utmost respect and salute is for you...n your still an inspiration...how i wish i can just reverse time and undo whatever i've done or said to make u feel this way about me...then again i'm assuming here......

n yea..."tuneless" is the 'best' criticism i've gotten in my life...one which really has hurt me...which has really made me feel..."am i made for this?"...TUNELESS?? if i really was...i wont be able to sing,and i wont be in this course...and i realise impressing you will be my biggest challenge as long as your my lecturer...thanx again for bringing me to my senses...thanx again..because i really had been patient,gobbling everything that u've said about me....thanx...n i'm sorry for being too sensitive..too indulged in what u've said...sometimes i hate it being too sensitive and all..but dats just the way i am....


see how different my Yesterday and Today was??hahaha now u get me??haha